Introductions

I turned 26 this month. I think there is a birthday for everyone, when it finally hits home: I'm getting old. 26 happened to be that birthday for me. I started looking back at my life, and tried to think about what I would have done differently. There wasn't much. I went to all the right schools, I have great friends, I love my career, and I've made decent money along the way. But there's one thing that I haven't mastered: women.

I love women. I've always admired their beauty, lusted at their sexuality, and longed for their companionship. And I've always been disappointed. My relationships with women have been unsatisfying for the most part. I never had a girlfriend in high school and only one for all of college. I never had the sex that I've always wanted, because she wasn't into it and I never knew how to get it. I'm awkward around women, and I always end up spending the night alone.

A year and a half ago, I discovered the PUA community. It was during one of the lowest points of my life and a desperate google search brought me to the Pickup 101 website. What I read amazed me. It made perfect sense. Not only was I not completely helpless, there is a system of behavior that I could learn to become better with women: get dates, get laid, and get fulfilling relationships. I started to apply some of the techniques I had read and got immediate results. I remember my first #close. It was on the bus, my heart was racing at a million miles an hour, but it worked. She never called back, but I've never done anything like that before, and I was hooked.

But the path to becoming James Bond was harder than I imagined. There were so many bad behaviors and psychological barriers that I internalized over the years. I would make improvements, then hit a wall and fall back. I'm tired of retreating.

So last month, I decided to take a workshop and ask for help from the professionals. I've been working with Derek and Dennis from Social Savant, and learning from them. I'm starting this blog to document my journey, and perhaps in some distant future, when I'm happily married, I could look back and see the path I traced for myself.